The day my life changed, forever.. The day my oncologist said it was leukemia…
My oncologist said it was leukemia. On June 13, 2017 I had an appointment with an oncologist named Dr. Michael Meshad. When he looked at my blood work he immediately knew it was leukemia. Once he told me and my family the news I was devastated, scared, and so angry!!! The only words I was able to say were “ Am I going to die?” That’s when Dr. Meshad looked at me and said “ You can beat this, but it’s going to be the fight of your life.” The day my oncologist said it was leukemia was the day that changed my life, forever.
That day I was immediately admitted into the hospital. Once the news spread about my diagnosis, I was overwhelmed with the amount of people that came to see me and showed me love and support. Once again I was SO angry. I kept questioning “ God why me?” I wasn’t aware of what my future held, but I knew I had to be stronger than ever because I had a lot of life left to live.
After letting anger take me over for a few days my mom made a deal with me. She told me “ Regan I pinky promise, you will never go through any of this alone. You fight, I fight. If you cry I’ll wipe your tears. When you’re scared, I’ll hold you. When you lose your hair I’ll shave mine.” That lifted my spirits and made me feel like I wasn’t alone.
Before I began my first round of induction chemo
Before I began my first round of induction chemo, I was given the opportunity to undergo an egg preservation procedure, but it would delay the starting of my treatment. Knowing the severity of my disease and my intense treatment plan, I wasn’t given much hope of being able to have children. Me being as scared as I was, I made the decision to not delay treatment, and to decline the opportunity that was given to me for the egg preservation. The only thing I could think of, was beating this disease that was inside of me. Thankfully, with caring doctors and God on my side I was still able to retrieve over 30 eggs after my induction chemo was completed!!!
I went through my first round of chemo known as “ 7 + 3 regimen” with hardly no complications. However, once the results came in from further testing it was determined that chemo wouldn’t cure me. I would have to have a bone marrow transplant.
Start to my NEW normal
I eventually started losing my hair and was too afraid to go ahead and shave it all off because I was worried about what I would look like.. But, watching your hair fall out piece by piece is so heartbreaking and painful. So I went ahead and shaved it off and cried as I look at myself in the mirror. My mom being my biggest supporter stuck to her promise and shaved off her hair as well. In that moment I felt so beautiful. Seeing how beautiful my mom was without her hair, made me realize it’s not the hair that makes you beautiful, it’s your heart and strength. That day I was determined that cancer WOULD NOT define ME! I was going to fight with grace and dignity. That was the start to my NEW normal…