Soon after being diagnosed, I started my first round of Chemotherapy, also known as Induction. They will be administering two types medicines through my picc line (a long IV that goes into my arm all the way through a vein near my heart). Doxorubicin which known as the “red devil”, along with a strong dose of Cytarabine and will be ongoing for the next 7 day.
I don’t feel well, I don’t know what to expect, I am just scared out of my mind. Just yesterday, I was going back and forth between two jobs and today I am in the hospital with cancer. Life comes at you so fast! I am at the stage of disbelief and I am getting a lot of out of body experiences. I know where I am, I know what I doing, but it all just feels so unsurreal. First round of chemotherpahy, what just happened?!
One thing that has kept me sane during the first few days of this reality was prayer. I would close my eyes and just say these words “God is restoring health back into me, the number of my days .. he will fulfill. I feel weak and scared, but I AM STRONG. The spirit of faith is in our words and the tongue speaks truth!”
I will make sure to smile every time because that’s what going to help get me through this difficult time.
Day 2: I had no side effects, everything went smoothly and it was all around a great day! However, one of my oncology nurses had to administer Ativan to help me with any anxiety issues and to help me get some good rest. Some hours can be overwhelming but I’m encouraging myself to take it by minutes when that just seems like too much. Lord knows these next few days may be a little harder.
I just want to say thank you to all of my friends and family for the continued love, support and donations. You really have no idea how full my heart am spirit feels when reading messages & comments. You truly helped me get through those first rounds of chemotherapy.